Surrender and Farewell....

We argue in circles....round and round...

Where it stops everybody knows...except us...

Even we see it now...I do at least...

We repeat this insanity over and over...

We fight, cry, fuck and get high...lather rinse repeat...

I for one call a truce and admit defeat...

You win...you are 100% right and I am 200% wrong...

Even those odds would not suffice to satisfy the revenge you seek...

I am not the one who did all that to you...some sure but not all..

I try to help you the best I can every time you fall...

And get bit time and time again....your bite is getting stronger...

Your bites aren't play anymore...your banter has turned to rancor...

Your sweet tears of joy I used to kiss off your cheek have turned sour and dry...

The game is over...time to say goodbye...

Adios, see ya later, farewell, goodbye...

Just an update...if anyone's reading.

Holiday's are coming up and I've moved back to Scottsdale due to lack of funding on the major project I have been working on in LA for the past 5 months. Regroup, recover, get a j-o-b which is not that easy. I have sent out over 1,000 resumes over the past two years and the combination of no 4 year degree, being 53 and not having the cleanest credit and criminal histories hurts me bad. The family trust has been a huge help but funds are not eternal so I gotta do something here quick.

That is all....it will be ok....I eat this kind of pressure for lunch!

Black....

Hey...oooh...
Sheets of empty canvas
Untouched sheets of clay
Were laid spread out before me
As her body once did
All five horizons
Revolved around her soul
As the earth to the sun
Now the air I tasted and breathed
Has taken a turn
Ooh and all I taught her was everything
Ooh I know she gave me all that she wore
And now my bitter hands
Chafe beneath the clouds
Of what was everything
Oh the pictures have
All been washed in black
Tattooed everything
I take a walk outside
I'm surrounded by
Some kids at play
I can feel their laughter
So why do I sear
Oh, and twisted thoughts that spin
Round my head
I'm spinning
Oh, I'm spinning
How quick the sun can, drop away...
And now my bitter hands
Cradle broken glass
Of what was everything
All the pictures had
All been washed in black
Tattooed everything
All the love gone bad
Turned my world to black
Tattooed all I see
All that I am
All I'll be...
Yeah
Uh huh...uh huh...ooh...
I know someday you'll have a beautiful life
I know you'll be a sun
In somebody else's sky
But why
Why
Why can't it be
Why can't it be mine
(not sure?)
mm-hmm no yeah no
mm mmmm no nonono yeah yeah
we-
we belong
we belong together
together
oooh ooh
we-
we belong
we belong together
oh yeah