Friday, September 28, 2012

No Fear....No Hesitation

So I'm in what I refer to as "shark mode" which is a protective mode where I rip through days and even weeks in one big blur. Time is suspended as are most colors as if I'm watching a black and white film of my life in fast forward. I am on autopilot...no emotions, no recognition of other's emotions just a flatime hum of existence. I had an incredibly productive week yet it wasn't of my doing...I simply watched it occur and literally sat in front of this laptop in the dining room of Kjell's condo at the coast...eating once in a while but coming to with my face in the keyboard about once every 48-72 hrs having no recollection of what I was doing prior to passing out until I look at my browsing history....stay away...I'm in shark mode and not accountable for my actions...please stay away....

2 comments:

Lisa said...

Do you know how many people are suffering from serious illness, financial loss, unemployment, homeless,starving, etc,etc,etc. And here you are, basically a healthy 54 yr old intelligent man who is writing about how "lost" you are, and for everyone to stay away....you have had dozens of opportunities to do something with your life, yet you choose a life with "The Bitch"...a cold metal board of electronic pieces, which I am sadly convinced is whats inside of you. You obviously were never taught to "count your blessings" as you are alive and well while so many millions of people suffer daily. You should be ashamed of yourself for such a pathetic "poor me" piece of writing when you are capable of so much more. What happened to you to make you so cold and empty inside? You have life...while other kind caring souls have lost theirs...How dare you post something like this for others to see? Good people who are fighting for their lives, or the lives of their loved ones. Shame,shame on you for such selfish thoughts....makes you wonder the reasons why the good are taken & the bad remain...how very sad.

Stephen G. Barr said...

No dear...there is no shame in what I write.